Ch-ch-changes

It's unbelievable just how quickly time flies. How is it already the end of May?! There are so many things that have happened in the past year that just don't seem real. I half expect that I'll wake up from this dream/nightmare any minute.

I can't believe that my grandpa is gone and has been for over 9 months. Yesterday I stopped at my grandmother's trailer and almost burst into tears seeing his straw hat in one of the closets. I'd have thought that with all the work and research I have done pertaining to death I would be better prepared to deal with it in my own life, but I'm not.

My mom is still having such a hard time about my dad leaving. I really hope she'll be alright when I leave for school. I don't exactly have fond feelings towards him either; he's abandoned his whole family at a time when we were grieving, and he left me to pick up the broken pieces.

Then there's my brother. He's stuck in a bad place and won't let anyone in. He had applied to do his Masters, but flunked a class. He'll have to make it up this summer. He's received one rejection letter so far, but is supposed to have a phone interview with someone at Laurentian, so this might be his chance.

More and more I'm realizing just how lucky I am to have gotten into my PhD program. I've read and heard from so many people about how competitive grad school is right now given the state of the economy.

I am excited about the move, although terrified at the same time. I really need to get going; find an apartment, clean up my room, and decide what to pack. Money stresses me a bit, but I really should be ok. The past year has brought so much bad, let's hope that Winnipeg will be a positive change.